They say that everyday that you live and breathe, you learn something new.. I guess that's kinda true... everyday without fail, I learn something new... And today was no different man...haha I made a discovery today that really made me want to cry but at the same time feels like it's useless to do so. A very painful yet at the same time a feeling of indifference overcomes it.. It sounds confusing but thats what feelings are...haha...I should have seen it coming right...I prayed for it to happen but when it did, I wanna feel happy for it but at the same time it left me sad. I spent almost half my teen years keeping it afloat knowing that it would sink eventually but when it did, I keep telling myself it's still there when there's none. I guess it's just to keep me reassured but nevertheless, I managed to hold on to it for quite a while and actually believed I had it. But today relisation hit and I guess I gotta move on haha...Those days when I used to get those jitters and shivers and all those empty-pit-in-your-stomach feelings are long gone man...Gotta get out of these nonsense and get a life man...There are other stuffs out there that needs my attention...

Therefore today, 29 January 2006, I am 18 years and 1 month old exactly, and I am saying goodbye to that chapter of my life and hope that I'll never refer back to it...

Aite now back to my old crazy self, ignore the first para, its just writing down some stuffs that i had to deal with haha...so um... Happy Chinese New Year to all Chinese people out there...have a prosperous Lunar New Year...Gong Xi Fa Cai!

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